Tired

I am still tired. It’s not depression but actually frustration. Frustration that the past six weeks have been so long and drawn out. I sit around for most of the day because my attending thinks that having a student in the room is awkward. What’s the point of my being there then? I have been told that this rotation has not been accurately reflective of family medicine as a whole. I dont think I can practice medicine in the outpatient setting. I am an inpatient kind of lady. I like the intellectual challenge and that has been lacking for awhile. I know I would burn out if I had to see uncomplicated URIs and UTIs and annual physicals day in and day out. For some people, this is the perfect setting for them. Not me.

For the last 6 weeks, I have felt trapped in this rotation. I have been itching, clamoring for it to end. As of Friday, I think that I will feel a great sense of relief.